You know when you have something on your mind and
no matter where you turn, it seems to present itself?
(Is there a clinical or psychological term for this??)
In any case, that's what my life has been like for the
last little while, but it's a great thing.
Energy is a crazy thing, and it goes to show that
whatever energy you possess, it rules the direction
of your path...intended or not, so I'm learning to count
my daily blessings no matter how small they may seem.

The countdown continues...

Balmain

I WANT THESE PANTS.

Moon. I feel you.

Unattainable, trying to get hold of the unattainable.
I suppose the curiosity of seeking the spark
within this darkness is too. much. work.
The glimmer of intrigue that shows up is just that.
A glimmer. So dull, yet luminous in its complex
arrival, that it quickly... fades. to. black.

It's Black, it's White

The amount of sunlight this house receives is
what I long for. Windows, windows and more windows.
This is how I want my future home to resemble.
...with pops of color here and there.

one day it will all make sense

I always say this to myself because I know it's true.

There are days I wish that it would make sense all at
once, so I could just move on to the next place, person
or thing but I guess I'd be missing the point.
The learning curve. The life experience, which I think,
most people living in North America don't understand
because we've been economically socialized by the routine
of 'live to work instead of work to live'. Oh, how we've
been cheated by given only as much as 2 weeks paid vacation
(if you're lucky at all) out of 52 weeks, with the thought
of if one can afford to actually 'go' anywhere for clarity.
Someone said to me last night," Toronto is f*cking awesome!"
and I busted out laughing, because honestly, it's not even a
Top 10 City to live in or even visit for that matter,
so relax yourself, please. It's a decent city, far from awesome.
I've realized this as I think my decade stint of rat racing here
might be coming to a close. Planning for change has been
full of second-guessing, seclusion and optimism but most
importantly, it's on track...so, to be continued.

Hello Lover!

Now I'll never have you..I came by to see
you and net-a-porter said you were gone.

Run It!

I'm going to run one of these shortly...stay tuned.

out with the hate

I'll start by saying that '08 was a crap year in more
ways than I'd like to remember. Jan 1/08 showed me
the wrong side of the bed and I paid for it as the
snowball effect took me all the way to end of November.
I couldn't catch a break, which in turn made me the
most bitter and irritable I've ever been. Ever.
I branded it early on as, "2008 The Year of Hate".
The handful of positives were just that, making it
almost impossible to the see the bright side.
But it was the year of live shows and I am thankful to
those who helped me get over the worst of times with
tunes, they know who they are because we probably spent
time at a concert or dancing 'til ungodly hours.

With all that had taken place, booking it the hell out of
'screwface capital' for the holidays, in search of family
was the best decision I made the entire year and I owe
it to myself to leave dead weight and thoughts,
including certain people, in the past without explanation...
let the healing and succeeding being. 2009 will be divine.